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Monday, February 27, 2012


This poem was shared with me in a private message by someone on FB that has suffered addiction and watched the devastating effects of pills. I don't know who wrote it but if you are experiencing this battle right now, you will realize how this embodies pill addiction PERFECTLY. If you aren't or haven't experienced this horrible epidemic, after reading this I hope you can understand better what addicts go through, because this is EXACTLY what pills do to them. Thank you so much Sean for sharing this. It is so powerful and so true. I have permanently posted this poem near the bottom left of this blog.


I destroy homes, tear families apart,
take your children, and that's just the start.

I'm more costly than diamonds, more costly than gold,
the sorrow I bring is a sight to behold,
and if you need me, remember I'm easily found.
I live all around you, in schools and in town.

I live with the rich, I live with the poor,
I live down the street, and maybe next door.
My power is awesome; try me you'll see,
but if you do, you may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go,
but try me twice, and I'll own your soul.

When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie.
You do what you have to just to get high.
The crimes you'll commit, for my narcotic charms
will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms.

You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad
When you see their tears, you should feel sad.

But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,
I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.
I take kids from parents, and parents from kids,
I turn people from God, and separate from friends.

I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride,
I'll be with you always, right by your side.

You'll give up everything your family, your home,
your friends, your money, then you'll be alone.
I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give.
When I'm finished with you you'll be lucky to live.

If you try me be warned this is no game.
If given the chance, I'll drive you insane.
I'll ravish your body; I'll control your mind.
I'll own you completely; your soul will be mine.

The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,
the voices you'll hear from inside your head,
the sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see;
I want you to know, these are all gifts from me,

But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart,
that you are mine, and we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,
but you came to me, not I to you.
You knew this would happen. Many times you were told,
but you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.

You could have said no, and just walked away,
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?

I'll be your master; you will be my slave,
I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave.
Now that you have met me, what will you do?
Will you try me or not? Its all up to you.

I can bring you more misery than words can tell.
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.


  1. I had just found this poem. I suffer, and this hits home very deep. No matter how hard you try the want will always be with you. No matter how hard you fight, it's there. I wish I never took that first pill, but I did and I can't change the past. I will keep fighting tho even tho it is so easy to cave in...

    1. I completely understand. My brother Addison was the same way. He HATED pills towards the end. He was so ANGRY that he ever took that first one, and he too, struggled so much. I'm so sorry that you struggle too, just please know that you are not alone- and there are people out there, that understand, and really care, and don't judge you for any choices you have made in the past.

  2. this makes me so sad!!! my baby sister is hooked on pain killers, I have already lost my brother in a car accident and he was MY BEST FRIEND and now she is all I have left and we are so close(sometimes) when she has meds :( it makes me so sad!!!!! she has 3 kid 2 boys ages 5 and 6 and a girl that 1. I don't know how to help her, she lies to me and my mom all the time and I have cut her off with money but my mom won't! She won't admit she has a problem and I don't know what to do!!!!!

    1. I know how you feel. I'm there to watching everyone around fall to nothing. I don't know how to help I feel useless as I watch it get worse. My friend had a baby just born but still they won't stop. Knowing that being on probation that prison is where they are headed its like they don't care to loose their son and go there. The lies get worse and worse and they beg and beg they do whatever it takes. I wish I could help I pray and pray for them. God will surely help...

    2. I know how helpless everyone feels. It is SUCH a battle, that causes such devastating affects on EVERYONE. Please just know that you all are not alone. There are people that care. Even if you don't know them. There are people that know EXACTLY how you feel, because they have walked in your shoes. I am so sorry that so many people are going through what we did with Addison. Not having him here is just GOD AWFUL. I miss him so much, and now we are facing our first Christmas and New Year's without him, immediately followed by the one year anniversary of his death on January 2. Prayers to everyone fighting this battle.

    3. I no the pain. I have been clean for five months cause of the NA program. I have a wife and there kids that I lied to stole from and cheated. I was no father or husband. I was in deep. there is hope

    4. I see it all around...it has my sister..she lives down the street..please God help these people...

    5. Intervention!! Get her into help by any means! My son at 16 was hooked on pain meds. Had I not been a tough mom I don't think he would have gotten through it. Tough by getting him thrown into juvie just so he could not use. And tough by when asked by the nurse there if I would like him to have some meds to help him through withdrawal and I said not umless his life in danger with out them" u must have tough love!

  3. I ran across a post from someone on Face Book and I just wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your loss this past January! I am a recovering Alcoholic and addict. I have been clean for 7 1/2 years. I was addicted to being addicted I think. Anything that gave me that high was fine, I didn't discriminate! This poem is very personal to me, but I wanted you to have a post in your comments with some hope! If I can come back from the depths of hell, anyone can. A couple years into my program, I was in my 2nd serious accident. This time, it was bad and again it wasn't my fault. Since this one, I have undergone 27 surgeries in the past 5 1/2 years. I am now disabled and in pain management. The doctors have me on several different medications, but I am monitored monthly, have a good support network and a lot of people behind me hoping that I will succeed and live a long and healthy life! I turned 40 this year, have two young girls, a beautiful wife and a happy home life! It would be a lie to tell you that I don't still have some of the memories and I think about my old life from time to time. I was in the trenches for almost 20 years, but again, there is hope! I hope that what you are doing is successful and I wish there were more people out there taking this fight head on and trying to make a difference! I live in GA and the regulations that you have suggested are almost word for word what I signed on for in my treatment agreement! I am on of the lucky ones. I still pray every night for the sick and suffering who are still out there struggling in this fight and for those who have lost loved ones because of this illness. With hope, one day, we can overcome this and get this under control so that no one else will ever have to go through what you suffered this year! Thanks again for what you are doing, I really appreciate it and appreciate the chance to share on your site! If you have any questions for me or ever want to talk about anything related, please feel free to let me know. I can be reached at:

    John C.

    1. John,
      What an incredible testimony you have! What kind of accident were you involved in? I cannot imagine 27 surgeries! I am so glad that what I have planned for the state of TN is what is working so well for you in GA. Thank you so much for sending me this post, it has given me hope, and I am very happy that you posted it.

    2. So proud of you!!! Imagine how lucky your girls are to have their father in their lives! Kepp up the good work and be proud of yourself!! Hugs to you.

  4. This poem is so true. I struggle with addiction to pain pills. And it's a never ending fight. I took my first pill, a Percocet, at age 11. I'm 25 years old now. I grew up around drugs. All of my family are addicts and alcoholics. I had a very rough life and drugs seemed to take my pain away. When I was 21 I started smoking crack. That wasn't the first time I had tried it, but it was definitely different than the times before. I was hooked. I was doing pills, heroin, and crack everyday. My boyfriend of 8 years was right there with me. I was raped and beaten on more than one occasion. People didn't tell me I was pretty anymore. They just looked at me with pity or disgust in their eyes. I let my family and friends down time after time. My mom waited for a call that I was dead. I lost my faith...I didn't pray anymore.

  5. Continued for above post...I was lost, broken, emotionally and physically drained, scared, angry, and disgusted with myself. I got in trouble with the law,so did my boyfriend. I never thought I'd see the inside of a jail, but I did. We hit rock bottom hard. We lost our cars, jobs, and had to move back to my boyfriends parents house. We were shooting up, smoking crack, and drinking everyday. I wanted to change, but I didn't know how or if I was even strong enough to survive it. And then one Sunday, I was withdrawing and severely sick, but God put it on my heart to go to church. I tried to ignore the nagging voice in my head telling me to get up and go, but I couldn't. So I went. I looked like I was terminally ill because i was so strung out. But i walked into a church i hadn't been to in years. Something inside me changed that morning in February. I wasn't miraculously healed or anything, but I had hope now, a hope i didn't have before. And i felt brave enough to ask my boyfriends mom for help. She cried and said God had told her to go ahead and make an appointment with a suboxone doctor because she knew we would be asking for help. Within a week we were in the clinic. The clinic saved our lives. And today I'm thankful to be alive and clean for two years now. If you're struggling with addiction and reading this right now, please know that you can change your life too. I know alot of people think suboxone is just trading one drug for another but it's really not like that. And some people just don't understand unless they have been through it themselves. Just keep your head up and eyes on God. And don't look at your addiction as a weakness, it's just making you stronger. God bless you all

    1. God is so good and I'm glad to see people turn to God and rely on his strength. I was addicted to heroin about 10 yrs ago and have been clean ever since. I have friends and family that struggle as well and every chance I get I will preach what I know to help others. I had a miraculous healing in church by the grace of God. But, not everyone does. Everyone has a different story. Keep praying and believing everyone. It has been done. Have faith!

  6. It has been almost two years now that I lost my youngest daughter to One Oxy and a shot of whiskey. She just fell over dead. Keep fighting the good fight. Never surrender. Keep marching forward. Fear is a reaction, Courage is a decision. God bless all of you.

  7. This is the complete truth. I almost lost my Dad a few weeks ago due to perscription ain killers. He is my everything, although he was on drugs terribly bad we were still close. I love him with everything in me.. Him & my mother were together for 14 years but he got so bad he would beat her untill she couldnt move. Then he would leave. Then, she would let him come back. They finally got a divoce after she got fed up with all his lies. He quit his job. He wasnt bringing any money in like he was suppost to. So, my mother had to do it all on her own.. Therefore, my family fell apart. My sister moved out. My dad wasnt around me for 4 years, & my mother worked two jobs to take care of us. I never seen anyone for awhile. I was always alone. But, i wanna say thank you & im sorry for what happened with your brother.

  8. I have a friend really addicted to Methadone and Xanax I tried helping and she just turned into someone I never met before I care for her I'm scared one day I'll be going to her funeral 1 thing that hurts the most she came to me for help but know all she does is push me away I'm honestly lost and confused should I just give up or still keep trying I honestly think she needs treatment somewhere she can stay and they can help her if not she just going to stay on drugs and in up dead

    1. First let me start by telling you I was an addict of meth. Everyday for 6 years and for the 2 years prior to that I was a "social user". I've now been clean for 8 years.
      Your friend will have to want to change. You can love her.........but it will have to be from a distance. You cannot continue a relationship with someone who doesn't add to the equation. I had almost lost everyone who meant something to me. I wasn't quite at rock bottom but it was as far as I was willing to go. Knowing that everyone I knew that truly loved me for me was about to be out of my life forever was more than I could stand. Sure I had the ppl who like me to get effd up with them. Stay loaded with them. But those people didn't care about me. They didn't love me. And I knew that.
      Don't give up on her..........but distance yourself. Everyone should distance themselves from her and she will either choose her loved ones or choose the drug. IF and when she chooses her loved ones, that's when she will need all of you most. She will be in physical pain. She will be emotionally wrecked. It will be the hardest time any of you ever go thru. But it passes. IF she sticks with being sober it will pass. Good luck and I hope you get your friend back.

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